I will be back….

Since my 09/16/2016 post, I have not been myself. My PTSD was triggered that day in a way I can’t describe. I am working on getting myself right side. It doesn’t help that I have had a migraine since 07/26/2016. I have had a medium to high level of pain but that is not all a migraine is. I don’t wish this upon anyone. Some nights, I can’t sleep and have to during the day. My dreams have become almost a reality for me. There are days when I don’t know if I dreamt something or if actually happened. This is aggravating my family and what is left of my friends. What is most aggravating is that they don’t see how hard it is on me. I try and write in my journal but that doesn’t help. My doctors tell me they don’t know what it is; just that I have to go through it. It is making for an extremely place or road to be on by myself. People say that I need to switch paths or roads; I only see and go by what my instincts tell me. Good or bad, I have to deal with the consequences. Not just emotionally but psychologically and physically. My autoimmune diseases are interconnected to my physical disabilities which adds to my psychological and emotional.

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PTSD triggered today

I just want to put this out there because my PTSD was triggered today. It made my pain in my head worse because I threw up everything I had eaten today. I am not looking for sympathy of any kind or any response. Just read it.If you know someone has PTSD and migraines (honestly anyone with PTSD, solider or not), find out how you can help when they become triggered. Some don’t like to be touched. Some need just to have to be able to touch something or hear a voice. If you are not aware that someone has PTSD, ask them what they can do. It actually hurts worse when you just walk away or don’t even acknowledge it. That is the worst thing you can do.

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Medicine in the United States 

I have to say the drug manufacturers and the government are making some dangerous health decisions for the American people. 

The CDC makes these ‘guidelines’ in regards to opioids and how the doctors write for them. Patients who are in chronic pain can’t get the medication that helps their pain. Doctors are not writing for those meds because they are afraid of the CDC, FDA will do in terms of  their medical practices. I should have never heard a doctor say he finally got all his patients off pain medication. The idiot not realizing how loud he was talking got an earful from me telling him that if he is actively not treating patients that are in pain, he needs to stop practicing medicine. Of course when I asked about the ‘first do no harm’, he walked off. Now patients are turning to the streets to get drugs and if they have been off of them for awhile, they can overdose and die. Then their deaths at times ruled as suicide. Yes, depression can be an additional diagnosis to a pain diagnosis but that does not mean they want to actually stop living.  

I will admit that I have thought about it. Hell, you want me to be truly honest, I have thought about since I was a child. By child, I do mean under the age of 10. As I am writing this, I am on hour 703 (=29 days) of a migraine that I have had since Tuesday, July 26, 2016. I have had visual and hearing hallucinations. You want to know what my neurologist said. I can take Tylenol 1-2 tablets no more than twice a week. 

Now this is even better. The company that makes Epipen (a shot when someone is having a life threatening allergic reaction) has increased the medication by 400%. Now, people can’t afford it. How many are going to die? 

Epipen Article – this is a must read!!!

Pain patients only want to have pain relief. Find cures that cause the pain. 

People want to be able to breathe. I guess now we have to have to pay for air. How many children are going to die? 

The “suicide” rate has already increased. I wonder what the cause of death will be for those that don’t have access to Epipen. 

To the ER or not… 

Here’s to hoping this coming storm will break not only this long ass migraine (according to my app, 557 hours and counting) AND hoping that the storm will relieve my joints that are screaming. If not, looks like I will be making an ER visit that I have no clue how I will pay for. 

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